January 3rd, 2005

|| Relief!!! ||

I just got done talking to Vicki on Msn. I told her alot of things that were on my mind. It felt really good to get all that stuff out. I was tired of holding it in and waiting for it to all get better. It really doesn't work that way. It hurts more and more the longer you hold it in. I want to cry so badly >.<

I'm glad that I have a friend like Vicki to turn to and talk to about these sorts of things. I really hope I didn;t fuck up a friendship. I'd feeel really, really badly. SOmetimes, I think it's better to keep quiet. I just know it feels better to say it, no matter what happens next.

I hope you like your banner thingy-ma-bob, Vicki. You'e the best. Thanks so much for being there for me, I love you! (In a firendly way, hah!) Well, I just wanted to make that post to let out some relief. I'm through.

XxX. Whittey .XxX
  • Current Music
    Not Living :: Coal Chamber

|| Blinded Fury ||

My mother has gone and royally pissed me off. I mean, to the point of me hating her.

I spend 3 hours of my god damn time wheeling my computer into my bedroom, the place I've been longing for it to go for the past 5 years, and I hooked it up. I swept the bathroom area where the computer once was, and then I hooked it up in my room. I've been *dying* to get it into my room. Well, the deal was, if I moved it into my room, it could stay...So, I moved it..

Guess what happens next?

SHE TELLS ME SHE DOESN'T LIKE IT THERE. Oh my god! She walks in and looks at me, and says in this smart-ass tone, 'It isn't staying forever. I don't like it in here. I changed my mind.' I want to knock her fucking head off. I waited 5 years for the day to actually walk into my room, and see a computer. I think I'm old enough and mature enough to know when to get off a fucking computer at night, especially if I have school the next day. I mean, come on! Ugh, fucking WHORE!

*Too pissed to type anymore.*

XxX. Whittey .XxX
  • Current Music
    Bitter fuckin' silence.